Hold on Tight....Enjoy the Ride...

Lately I’ve had writer’s block but God is beginning to give me clarification on so many things in my life. God’s signs and wonders are wonderful things if you pay attention. Not to say I haven’t had anything to write about lately but I haven’t been able to put it in words that would make sense. Love has been on my mind lately. See my personality is different than many other women out there. When I get hurt I get angry and when I get mad I cry. God programmed me that way and I have accepted it and I have come to love it because HE made me that way! He made me to love with my whole heart and never back down to love. See nothing can separate us from the love of God. If you look at “Romans 8:38-39 (The Message)

31-39 So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture: They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We're sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one. None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I'm absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.

As time is getting closer to the divorce I really look into marriage and what God intended it to be. Now I am NOT going to go into details because I would be typing forever about a Godly marriage. I have learned though especially during our Ephesians study that we as Christians need to make allowances for each other’s faults because of love. What is love to you? Love is so many different things. The type of love you have for your friends and family is totally different than the type you have for your husband and wife. Does true love ever fade or go away? YES! If you don’t nurture the love it will fade. If you allow Satan to come in and take parts of your love away from one another you have problems. If you allow problems to remain without discussing them and working on them they turn into potholes and become devastating. It brings a few quotes to mind:

A bizarre sensation pervades a relationship of pretense. No truth seems true. A simple morning's greeting and response appear loaded with innuendo and fraught with implications. Each nicety becomes more sterile and each withdrawal more permanent. –Unknown

'Tis said of love that it sometimes goes, sometimes flies; runs with one, walks gravely with another; turns a third into ice, and sets a fourth in a flame: it wounds one, another it kills: like lightning it begins and ends in the same moment: it makes that fort yield at night which it besieged but in the morning; for there is no force able to resist it. Miguel De Cervantes


Back to my question though...Does true love ever fade or go away? NO.... I know you are thinking she just said YES! Trick Question  When you have true love for someone you will always have a special place for them. It’s kind of like putting together a puzzle. Your heart is a puzzle that needs each piece to complete one another. If one is missing your puzzle isn’t complete. Remember when that one piece just won’t fit then you turn it slightly to the right or left and it slides right in? Everything in our life has a purpose and promise with God. My testimony is unlike any others and believe me I want my cross and no one else’s! I follow God and love him with all my heart. He has a plan for me and I am discovering it day by day. When you live your life to the best of your ability serving God the blessings are endless. Will you have trials and failures? Yes, but that’s part of life. When things get tough stay in Gods house and following him and do not leave and forsake him for the flesh of this world. So many forsake him when times go bad and run to the flesh of this world and do things that they justify are okay when they really are not. Read the word daily and study what Gods plans are for you. Just as in Jeremiah 29:11-13 (New International Version)

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

I know that writing this is for someone but more importantly I’m writing this for me. See when you think back to dancing in the rain, late night movies , 7+ hour talks, good long hugs from the one you love, being serenaded to the most wonderful song or just looking at each other knowing exactly what the other person is thinking...Smile.... However, when you think back on the yelling, crying, running, emotional abuse, physical abuse....Smile... I don’t want someone else’s life because you just don’t get the good. You get it all. I would rather have my life and the lessons I have learned knowing there is better out there for me. I am still married and I still let people know that I am. When my divorce papers say that I am not married is the day I will change EVERYTHING! See I have the huge burning in my heart for marriage but not your typical marriage.. One that is ON FIRE FOR GOD! As the time approaches I can clearly see the plans he has for me and they are more than amazing. They are full of smiles; laughs, tears, rejoicing and most of all......LOVE....Love UNCONDITIONALLY! Isn’t God good!!!